Venting

I know I haven't been on here in a while but I have decided today would be a good day to login. So let me just start off by saying I am so tired of people. I know I am not the perfect person but I have a good heart and come from a good place. I believe I'm A good person. This past year has been tough. I have lost people who were close to me that I thought were my friends and ended up not being a good friend at all. And what hurts the most is that even though were not friends I still care about that person. There are some days where I truly feel like I have not one genuine friend. I could just be over reacting..ugh I don't know. I just hate giving people 100% of my friendship and they only give me about 10%. Yes, I get the fact that people have their own lives to live, but damn. I just feel like people are my friend because I'm their last resort. I feel so alone and when I really need a friend to be there for me..I turn around and have no one. It's so hard for me to deal with because I have never been in this situation. Is it me? What am I doing wrong? Everything else is going great, I mean I'm planning a wedding and getting married. I've been blessed with two beautiful boys and I'm buying a house soon. The only thing that is missing is girlfriends to share my experiences with. Well whatever..I hope things change. Because I totally feel like hiding and shutting down. Gosh maybe I'm depressed who knows. I sound so pathetic right now. well i'm going to stop. Until next time.

The House Is Finally Quiet

Ahh, the house is finally quiet and I can finally relax. I've been so busy lately taking care of the boys and the house. I feel overwhelmed and tired. I give those single mom's credit. It's hard work taking care of two kids all on your own. I know I'm not single ,but I feel that way at times. Eric works long hours sometimes, and usually when he gets home he's tired. I know he tries to help me when he can. I hope this gets a little easier. I swear I feel like I just need a little me time to breath. I love my boys with all my heart but man they drain me. I feel like I need a red bull just to keep up with them. I need to embrace the super mom some where in me. Omg, On another note I hate being home day in and day out. I feel like I need to get out and do something. I feel so bad for poor jayvin because he's stuck in the house with me. I know he is bored of me and the same routine as well. Thank goodness he's gonna finally be able to get out the house Friday through weds. Were all gonna get out a little bit this weekend. I am so happy, because we all need it. We've been stressed and I hate feeling that way. So anyways, back to this upcoming weekend. Friday were going to frisco, Sat jayvin is going to the fair/ spending the night with his friend little Ruben. Then Sunday He's going to stay at his LoLa's house until weds. It will be nice for him and I'll get to relax just a bit. I know once the baby gets older it will be easier for us to go out and do things again as a family. I really need to learn how to come to some balance, so that way I don't feel overwhelmed & stressed out. Remember people don't judge me. I'm still learning and adjusting to my new beautiful life with my babies. Pretty soon I'll be a pro. Well, hopefully. It's getting late and getting close to my bed time. Oh my, I just noticed Juellz is still up. Looks like I got to get him to bed first. Good night loves.

<3 Alicia

Yay, I can Blog Agian!

So I haven't been able to blog for a while because I forgot my username and password. Well, I finally figured it out, thanks to my iphone. I forgot that I had saved it on my phone. Can you say burnt..lol. My memory is so bad when I'm pregnant. I swear the baby sucks everything out of me.   Now that I am back, I can't wait to share more of my life with those of you who enjoy reading my blog :) . Anyways, on another note, I would like to share the good news. I finally gave birth to my beautiful baby boy Juellz Ke'ilani Auwae Hernandez on June 24, 2012 @ 9:16am. He was 8lbs and 14oz & 21 1/2 inches. I know big baby right. I can't even believe I pushed him out. I had a long labor but ended in a very successful Vbac. It was a way better experience then my first. Even though I was in labor for three days it was way worth the wait. I feel like it brought Eric and I closer together then ever before. It was a intimate setting and I loved that. I can say, I am truly happy with my life right now. I love my boys and my future husband Eric Hernandez more then anything. We are living back in Sacramento in a house that is so perfect for our little family. I feel so blessed and I am grateful for everything that god has given me. I look forward to what the future has in store for us and many more blessings. I've had great support from family and friends. I would like to thank them all for being there for me. So thank you. This was just a little update, hoped you enjoyed. Until again loves. I will be blogging Soon. So stay tuned.
Love Alicia <3

 My Baby Boy  

JUELLZ KE'ILANI AUWAE HERNANDEZ

This Little family of mine that I love so much

When I first met eric I never imagine that he would be the one I would spend the rest of my life with and have a beautiful family. I say that because when I met him I was very young. Still wanting to live life up to the fullest. He swooped me off my feet with his charm and his gentle ways. I still remember the days when he use to write me love letters just because. Omg, how it melt my heart. It was the little things he did that made me feel so special. I knew his love was genuine. He was everything that I was looking for and more. I fell so much in love with him and I still am very much in love with him. I mean we have been through some rough patches but that's what love is about. It becomes a stronger love especially when you over come the bad and tough times together.

Eric and I in 2008<3

Now I have a beautiful son that I could not live my life without and another on the way. I could not imagine my life without Eric, Jayvin, and Juellz. They are my everything.

Jayvin & mommy/2009

I love being a mommy and a fiance to my love. I wouldn't change it for the world. I'm so excited for our growing family and what the future brings for us. Who knows maybe one day will have baby number 3. lol well, will see how we do with two kids lol.

our family now/2012

And it's growing :)

baby Juellz on his way 22 weeks<3 

Until next time loves. I hoped you enjoyed this sweet short blog. 

So here it goes...

So here it goes. It's time to catch up on this past week. I've been so busy, that I haven't found the time to blog. Let's start off with last thursday. I drove down to Sacramento so that I could have a little me time with my girls. I dropped Jayvin off with my grandparents since he enjoys playing with his cousins so much. Then I ran off to have lunch with ashley and to just sit down and catch up since I really haven't seen her much since I've moved. And I know she has been going through a lot, so it felt good to sit down and talk and just relax and not have to worry for a moment. It was a beautiful Thursday downtown. It so brought me back to past memories of just us two having a good time. We caught up on lots of stuff that has been going on in our lives. It was nice to have lunch at (of course a mexican spot). And vent, Laugh, and just feel care free. We were missing one person though and that was my girl cece. Which I haven't seen in so long. So we called her up and told her to meet us at her favorite mexican spot. Tres Hermana's lol I hope I spelt that right. Omg. When she finally showed up, it felt just like old times. And I've missed that so much. We have been friends since middle school and even though we've had our ups and downs, it's nice to know that we can count on each other and be there for one another no matter what. We spent the whole day together laughing up a storm, telling stories and being silly. I would have to say that day was great and just what I needed. Well, I think we all needed it. I hope to get together with them like that every week. I love those girls. I finally realized who my true friends are. And let's just say I am glad they are in my life.

Picture we took that day lol. Now lets move on to friday. Friday I didn't do much. I spent the day with my little love bug Jayvin. I got him ready for our outing to the mall. I was on a mission to find me an outfit for saturday and sunday. Let me tell you, it's hard shopping for the perfect outfit while pregnant. But good thing the girls from wet seal were very helpful. I ended up finding just what I needed. I usually love shopping at forever 21 but right now they're going through a bright color phase and I was not trying to look like a neon highlighter ball lol. That would be all bad. So then after I did all my shopping I took my little munchkin to his favorite place to eat. Which is Mcdonalds, that was his treat for being such a good boy for mama. After that we finally came home and took a nap and before you know it our friday night was over with. Not much happens here at the Hernandez house in the evening time lol. 

Here's the outfit's that I found. At first I couldn't figure out which one to wear to the crab feed and which one to wear to the baby shower.

So finally Saturday Came around and I was actually looking forward to that day, because my mom and brother were coming down to visit and spend the night. We were going to a crab feed in union city. I woke up and started getting ready for the crab feed, because it takes me a while. lol What can I say, I like to look nice.

 After I finally got myself together and jayvin. My mom finally showed up and off we went to the crab feed. Along the way we stopped at a few stores to get butter and butter warmers. Shoot we were on a mission to tare that crab up. lol We finally got there and were seated right away. We sat there for almost 3 hours eating crab like there was no tomorrow. We ate so much we were ready to sleep lol.

After the crab feed we decided to walk around at the concord mall. So that way we weren't so stuffed. Then we came back to fairfield and got ready for bed. The boys went to bed but my mom and I stayed up and bonded and watched a lifetime movie. Which was pretty creepy lol. I would have to say it felt good to hang out with my mom. Since we don't get to see each other so much. I love her.

After the movie I took my butt to bed because I knew sunday would be another long day. So Sunday Finally came around. I woke up and had a nice family breakfast with my mom, brother, and in-laws. It was nice to see everyone talking and getting along. After breakfast my mom went home. Then it was time to rush around and get ready again. So We got ready headed to eric's cousins baby shower. Long story short. It was nice but a bit overwhelming for me. Jayvin was acting a fool so it always makes me tired when I have to constantly chase him around and tell him no don't do this, no don't do that. So finally it got to be to much and we finally went home. Man an hour after I got home I passed out. I did have a good time for a min & I took some pix with my prego cousins. 

So there you go. My busy week/weekend. I would feel you in on this week, but I really didn't do much. I hope you enjoyed my long blog. I'm now getting ready for bed. Until next time loves<3

Relaxing kind of day

Today was a relaxing kind of day. I woke up, started my morning like I usually do. I had breakfast with the family. Spent a little time with my little jayvin. We watched team umizoomi for the thousandth time. I know when he wants to watch it, because he repeats the only part he knows in the song. Until I finally notice and put it on or he wants me to sing it with him. Omg. It is so funny. Sometimes he even gets mad at me, if I don't sing with him. Like the other day I was on the phone with my tutu (which means grandma in Hawaiian). He started singing the team umizoomi song while staring me down. lol. He was probably like "what the heck mom, Why aren't you singing with me." Then all of a sudden he starts yelling out, Hey! Hey! Hey! I looked over and told him to be patient and wait until mommy is off the phone. He got so mad, He shouted out, "Noooo!'lol. He is such a little character. So after I watched a few programs with jayvin. I decided to get up and start cleaning my down stairs apartment. Well, kinda. But yeah, I finished the laundry, put away clothes, I vacuumed the carpets, Wiped down the counters. I was just making things tidy and neat. I hate when there is stuff every where. It seriously drives me nuts. I even get on Eric like all the time , because he does not know how to put his stuff away. Sometimes I feel like I have another child in the house. He is so lucky I love him. So after I finished everything I noticed my nails needed to be done again. They were chipping and just not looking cute anymore. I knew then it was time to re-do them. I decided to go pink with glitter and use Opi Nicki Minaj nail line. So While I was sitting down painting my nails (my hands first of course), I was trying to focus and not mess them up. I can see out of the corner of my eye that jayvin was watching me. Then all of a sudden he picks up one of the nail polishes out of my box and then shows me his hand. He says, "Mom Hands, Hands". I was thinking to myself "Omg. He really wants me to paint his nails. So I acted like I didn't hear him. And he just kept going "Mom Hands, Hands, Hands. At first I was thinking,"I'm not gonna paint his nails because he's gonna stick his fingers in his mouth."Then I finally gave in and picked out the clear coat nail polish. I told him to lay his hands flat. He watched me patiently paint his nails. He got so excited. He blew on them and everything just like mommy. In a way I thought it was the cutest thing but on the other hand I was like "wow he's hanging around mommy way to much". What can I say he's just as high maintenance as his daddy. After that, I finally got him down for a nap. While he was sleeping I decided to paint my toes. OMg. That was that hardest thing to do with this big prego belly in my way. I had to literally take breaks in between coats. Now that I think about it. That is the funniest thing to me, lol but I really had to breath and take a break and then do it again. I felt like a total fat kid. And juellz didn't like it so much either. During the breaks he was kicking up a storm. He was probably saying ,"Hey mom your squeezing me". lol.

My Text to Eric about my nails<3

Finally I finished My nails. I would have to say I did a pretty good job. Who ever said, you needed to pay to get your nails did. lol. And I love how my nails are so strong and long. I guess thats one of the pro's when your prego.lol. 

Here is the Outcome. And yes I am very Proud lol. So that is my exciting day. Well, not really but I hoped you enjoyed the highlight's just as much as I did. It's the little things that makes a relaxing day even better. Looking forward to a birthday surprise tonight for my brother in law, Moe. I would tell you the surprise, but he might read this and then it would totally be ruined. No Bueno. I'm not gonna be the one to spoil it lol. Any Ways have a good night. Until next time Loves<3

Busy me ended with Creative frustration..blah

So I woke up a little early today..actually everyday because eric always tends to wake me up when he's getting ready for work. It drives me nuts sometimes. Before he leaves he always kisses me goodbye. Then I fall back to sleep like a baby. But this morning he forgot to kiss me goodbye. I actually was looking forward to my goodbye kiss this morning ( super sad face). So when I finally rolled my prego butt out of bed to start my day. I made sure to text him to let him know he totally forgot about my kiss. He laughed and in response said I looked so peaceful and sound asleep that he didn't want to wake me. I replied and said I woke up and I was waiting and you never came back to kiss me. He laughed and said he loved me and that next time he wont forget. Omg, I feel so in love with him. Especially when he's not driving me nuts..lol. Love is meant to drive you crazy sometimes lol but most of the time it feels like heaven.

So any ways back to my day. Sorry I got a little off track in La La love Land. Silly me. So I ate my healthy breakfast while having a nice convo with my mother in law about the housing market and what to look for in buying a house. We are looking forward to buying our first house for our growing family in August. And I can't wait. So after breakfast I realized I had a lot to do today. I relaxed on the couch for a bit and read a little, wrote down family members addresses for the baby shower invites. Then I made a list of what Stores I needed to go to and what to get. Man let me tell you, writing a list helps a lot when your prego. Especially Me, because I swear I forget everything. My memory is totally shot. I then made sure I put my to do list in my purse so I wouldn't forget it. Then  I started to get ready for my day. I wasn't planning on getting dolled up but what do you know. I did. 

So As soon as I fixed myself up ,I prepared Jayvin for his outing with Mommy. Then before you know it, we were ready to go. I of course asked Moe's girlfriend stephanie to go with me. Since I'm still getting to know fairfield area. We got in my little toaster on wheels and took off to our first stop which was cvs. Then off we went to our next destination which was the Eco friendly baby store in Cordellia called Banana Peels. I suggest checking it out if you are a mama like me. Any ways I was there to pick up a baby shower gift for eric's cousin christine Aka tisay. I can't wait to give it to her. She is gonna love it. While I was in the store I found these adorable little cloth wipes. Super cute. I couldn't resist. I had to buy them.

 I would have bought everything in there if I stayed any longer. So We left to go grab a bite to eat. I finally decided on hawaiian food. Let me tell you though, it sucked! Nothing like the real deal. Even Jayvin was like no more mommy. After our tummy's were full, we walked over to the craft store to get some idea's on how I'm going to make these owl baby shower invites. So here is where the frustrations comes in. I finally came up with a concept on how I wanted to make them. I purchase the paper colors and special scissors to start off. Just so I can get the shapes down on how to make the owl. Well, I get home, carry jayvin into the bedroom because he just so happened to fall asleep right when we pulled in the drive way. So I was thinking,"That's perfect". Now I can have some quiet time to figure out how to make the owl. I laid jayvin down on the bed. Removed his shoes off his adorable little feet and quietly left the room. I started drawing out the shapes and then cutting them. Omg. I was getting so frustrated because my shapes came out all funky and not well proportioned. And it just wasn't turning out the way I imagined. And even though I went to art school. Everyone in their mama know's my drawing skills are not all that great. My teacher called them puny..lol. I guess I'm gonna have to figure out another way of doing it. Blah..So irritating.

  I guess I'll ask my better half once he gets home on how to do it. See if he can think of an easier way. Otherwise I might have to buy baby shower invitations that are already printed. We shall see. Major Bummer right now. Well, I think that is enough of my day. I'm gonna end up writing a novel if I don't stop now. lol. Have a good evening. Until next time loves<3